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Light in the Darkness | Supernatural Testimony


Light in the Darkness

(Please listen to Alexis’ story by clicking the white play button at the top of this post. You can read the transcript of the story below.)

Why does it get weird when a microphone is in your face anyways? But, um, yeah, I grew up in church; we went every Sunday. I would go Wednesday nights, I would, I would go to every every, like church retreat that was offered to me, in my youth and stuff. But I was not going for Jesus. I was going to be social. I was a really social person. And a lot of my friends went to church. Like, I was never taught to have a relationship with God. It was, it was just, it was just, you go to church, and you’ll get saved. And that’s kind of what I thought, like, I got my free ticket into heaven. But no, I never, I never knew that I had full accessibility to Jesus. I had no idea–I was never taught about spiritual warfare. I was never taught that Jesus’ name is all powerful. I was just never taught that stuff. When I was a freshman in high school, I started dating an 18 year old, which is bad news right off the bat. And it was, it was a really abusive relationship. And he forced me into doing things that I had never done before. And things that I knew weren’t right, because of what I learned growing up in church. So after that happened, I just thought, “Oh well, I’m worthless. Like, I’m a bad person, I can’t believe that I did those things now.” And so I started heavily, I started heavily drinking and using drugs and self-harming at 15, because I didn’t know how to deal with it. I didn’t really tell anybody. And then, throughout the four years of high school, I was raped by five different guys. So with with each one that happened, my drug and alcohol use got way worse. And it was just how I coped with it. That’s just how I dealt with it. I didn’t really want to talk about it to anyone. So I just kept suppressing the emotions, and kept just using drugs and alcohol and self-harming. After the last one happened, I was a senior in high school, I was 18. And it happened on a Friday. And then on the following Monday, I went to school, and I had a teacher who I didn’t know she was a Christian. And she could read people like a book. And I walked into her class, and she just looked at me and she’s like, “Alexis, what’s wrong? And I just lost it. And I started just crying. And with her encouragement, I ended up going to the authorities. And it wasn’t until a year later that I actually went to court. So I had been continually suppressing this this whole time. And then I went to court and I had to face one of the men who raped me. And that was, that was a really hard day. But I’m really glad I did it.

He went, he went to jail. But it was like, as soon as I left the courtroom, I could not ignore all this stuff that I had been pushing down for so long. And I didn’t, I didn’t really know it was going on. I didn’t really know about PTSD or anything like that. So I thought, “Man, I don’t want to go to sleep anymore. Because every time I go to sleep, I have to relive what happened.” So I thought, “Oh, I’ll just keep myself up. That sounds like a great idea. I’ll keep myself up. And then I don’t have to experience this.” So I kept myself up for several weeks. And I went absolutely insane, obviously. And I started going into my kitchen and I started like gathering knives. And I like had a stash of knives in my room and I started writing suicide notes. I was going to stab myself. It sounded like a really good idea at the time. And my mom came in and she found the stash of knives and she was like, “You need help.”

So in 2014, I was 19, and I went into my first psych ward. From 2014 to 2018, I was in over 20 psych wards. And they diagnosed me with like schizophrenia, bipolar one, borderline personality disorder, generalized anxiety, PTSD, OCD, intrusive thoughts. I mean, there is the list, the list just goes on and on. That four years of my life was just hell, it was awful. And I really just thought I was crazy, because that’s what I was told. They put me on social security disability, because they told me I would never work again or be able to function. I was really lost and really hopeless. The doctors had me on at least 10 psych meds at a time throughout this whole like four years. And they would try so many different combinations. But it was like nothing worked. I was in partial hospitalization programs, which is kind of like school. You go to the hospital, like six hours a day you come home, you go back, and you do that for months. And then in inpatient. And then throughout that time, I was in rehabs, and it was just, I was living in institutions. During this time, I had more fear than than I ever knew was possible. Um, I, I would see demons all the time. I would hear demonic voices talking to me from the time I woke up to the time I went to sleep. And they were telling me to do awful things. They’d tell me you know, to kill myself, or to hurt myself, they’d tell me to kill others, to hurt others. It it would just, it was like it was like a record on replay constantly. I started having what the medical field calls dissociative episodes, which it really only started happening the last two years. And what it is, is you you black out for long periods of time, like it can be days. And you like, I would have no recollection of what I what I was doing. But I look like I’m a functioning human being–like as my family’s watching or people, it looks normal. But to me, I would I wouldn’t even know what I was doing in those moments. And every time I would go into one of those, I’d try to kill myself. It was, it was something taking over and trying to kill me. One of the worst things that happened was, I was blacked out and one of these episodes. And I don’t know, I was always mad and I got really enraged like that day. And it was like I just completely blacked out. And I went to my room and I grabbed a razor blade. I always had them stashed. And I just started cutting my arm. Like within seconds, I think I made like 40 cuts. And I came to and I was in a pool of blood. And I was like, I was like, “Help Help!” And that is so like, that’s so weird for me, because I would always cut, but it was very secretive. And i just started screaming because I didn’t know what happened. And my sister who’s five years younger than me opens the door. And she finds me and she just like she just starts crying out like, “Alexis, why would you do this?” Why would you do this?” She was like, “NO!” And then she like, she went and she threw up. She couldn’t even stand look at it. And then my dad and my mom came in. And I mean just freaking out like horrified. And I remember my mom, because they didn’t understand what was going on, my mom’s like, “Are you just doing this for attention?” And they couldn’t understand. Like, I had no idea what I was doing.

Like I had no idea.

And so I just like, I remember I’d be in all these places, and the doctors and the therapists, they talk about self-control. And I’d be like, “What is that? What is self-control?” I was like, “I don’t have that. I used to have it. I have no idea what that is like, please, somebody help me like, because when I get mad, I do things. I have no idea what I’m doing. Like, I blacked out. I’m like, I don’t I don’t know what that is. What is self-control? Like, I want it, but I don’t have it.”

My life and my family’s life was just complete hell, like there were just so many things that occurred during that time. So many weird events that took place. And I never even thought for one moment that it was the devil, that it was Satan. Because the medical field, like just kept telling me I was crazy. I remember like always trying to explain to the therapist and the doctors what we’re going, what was going on. But it was like I couldn’t get someone to understand. I couldn’t get them to understand how bad it was. And I just felt so hopeless and so helpless. And just, I was so tired. And I am just at one of my lowest points. And my parents are begging me to go out with friends because I had always been this really social person, like I was the most talkative and like class clown in high school. So they’re like, “Please call your friends, like you need to go out you need to go out, you need to do something.” So I went out with friends. And it’s just a bunch of people hanging out. And I’m sitting alone in a chair in the corner, just like cowering over. And I couldn’t say one word. And I was like, “Oh my gosh, I am a shell of the person I once was. I’m a stranger to myself, I have no idea who I am.” And I went home. And I went right down into my basement and just start crying. And my mom follows me down. And she’s like, what’s going on? And I said, “Mom, I am so tired.” I was like, “I am at war with myself every single day.” I was like, “You don’t understand, I’m so tired.” I was like, “I can’t do this anymore.” I said, “Mom, I love you. But I’m so sorry, I’m preparing you right now that I’m going to kill myself. And it’s going to be very soon. I’m so sorry. But it’s happening.”

And my mom said the peace of God fell on her in that moment. And it was like He told her, “She’s not going to kill herself.” But my mom couldn’t show me that emotion in that moment because of how bad I was. So she just held me.

Like a week after that, it was September 14, 2018. My mom comes into my room in the morning when I’m getting ready to go to the hospital for my program. And she’s like, she’s like, “Hey, Alexis, you’re going to go to a church conference with me tonight.” And just bolts out. Because she knows I would have argued that and been like, “Oh, heck no, I’m not going there.” So she just like left, and I had no choice because I had such bad anxiety, I couldn’t even drive a car, like I hadn’t been driving for months. So my dad was taking me to the hospital. So I had really no way out. So my dad dropped me off at the hospital that day. And I’m sitting in group therapy like always, and I’m just going off. “My mom wants me to go to this stupid church conference tonight. She thinks I’m going to get like healed or something. Why can’t they just accept that I’m mentally ill?” Like, and I’m just, I mean, I’m mocking God, I’m mocking my mom. I’m like, “This is crap. Well, I don’t really have a choice. You know, my dad’s gonna drop me off there.” And I’m like, “I’m just gonna go to make my mom happy, whatever.” And I see my psychiatrist that day, who I’ve seen for years. And I go into his office, and I sit down with him, like always, and he’s like, “How are you doing?” I’m like, “I’m doing terrible.” And he just looks at me. And he says, “I can’t help you anymore.” I was like, “What do you mean, you can’t help me? That’s your job.” And he’s like, “I can’t help you. We’ve tried everything with you. We’ve tried, like every combination. You’ve been in so many, so many hospitals, so many programs.” He’s like, “I don’t know how to help you. You are more miserable than the last time, every time I see you.”

And so I’m like, my my hope in doctors and medicine is completely squished at that moment. And I’m like, I don’t know what I’m going to do. So my dad picks me up then and drops me off at this church. He drops me off. And I walked into the church to meet my mom. And as soon as I stepped foot into a church, I feel so sick. And I was like, “Mom, I need to get the heck out of here. Like I don’t want to be here. I feel so sick, get me out.” And she was like, “Oh, no, you’re not leaving.” I am so miserable. I’m so depressed. I don’t like people at this point. I’m like, I don’t want to be here. This is the last place for me to be. So I’m standing by a trash can. With my arms crossed in the lobby. And I’m just thinking to myself, you know, these meds aren’t working. These doctors don’t want to help me, they can’t help me. And I said, “God, if you’re real, you need to show up. And you need to show up in a big way. And if you don’t, I’m killing myself when I get home tonight.”

And the conference had already been going on, like every seat was taken, we were going to have to go to the overflow room. And all of a sudden, these two women stand up and they’re like, “Hey, do you guys want our seats?” So we take these seats, and my mom’s just talking to me and she’s she’s annoying me. I’m like, Oh my gosh, I don’t want to be around her. So I said, “Mom, I’m going to go up for worship.” I wasn’t intending on worshiping, but I was like, I need to get away from her. And my mom goes, “Alexis, please, ask someone for prayer, please just go get prayer.” And I was like, “Yeah, whatever. Like if you’re lucky.” So I go up to worship. And you know, it’s like, packed bunch of people and everyone’s got their hands raised, you know, “Jesus. Yeah.” And I’m like, in the midst of this crowd with my arms crossed, my head hung low, and I’m just crying, and I’m, I’m planning my suicide for when I get home. I’m like, this is it. This is the end. I’m done. And then I realized, I’m like, “Man worship’s gonna end in like, 15 minutes. If I don’t ask someone for prayer, my mom’s gonna bring me up here herself and cause a huge scene, like, I was like, nobody wants that. At least if I asked someone, I can tell her so she’ll leave me alone.” And the front rows like roped off and there’s security guards. I have no idea how I got in there. But I did. They looked important. And I was like, Oh, I’ll ask them for prayer. Like, yeah, that’s a good idea. I didn’t give a rip who they were. I didn’t care who they were. So I like go into, I go into this row, and I tap, I tap the head pastor of the church on the shoulder. He’s like, at the very end, and I was like,” Hey,” I said, “You don’t know me. My name is Alexis. My mom wants me to get prayer.” And he goes down three chairs where Todd is sitting. And he’s like, I didn’t know this at the time. But he looks at him. And he goes, “Dude, Todd, you gotta pray for this girl.” So it’s like dark, worship’s going on. There’s–we’re in this small aisle, and they just wave me down. And so I go down in front of Todd, and he grabs my hands, and I’m really close to him. And my head’s still down, you know, I’m crying. I’m a mess. And he just goes, “I need you to look at me right in my eyes.” So I lift my head up and make eye contact with him. And then all of a sudden, I felt something like, in me, almost start shaking. It was like an earthquake started happening. And then he just says two words very gently. And he just says, “Get out.”

I will never be able to fully comprehend what happened that night. But what I can tell you is that I have never felt so much love, and so much grace, like I did in that moment.

And my neck just snaps to the left like a 90 degree angle. I can still feel it to this day. It just snapped. I will never forget that. And then I lost. I mean, in that moment, I lost complete control of my body and what I was doing, so my neck snaps, my head goes back, and I start screaming. It was like horror just coming out of my mouth. Like, I could not make those sounds if I wanted to. It was horrific. Screams–it–there was like growling, hissing, it was just, it was just awful. And I tried to attack Todd, I’ve never, that thing. Those things inside of me. They were so mad at the Jesus in him. Like I had never felt that much rage in my life. It was like, it overtook me. And I had four grown men holding me back. And I couldn’t, I couldn’t hear anything outside of myself. It was like I was convulsing, and you know, screaming or whatever. And I could see Todd was pointing and talking to these demons, like casting them out, but I couldn’t really hear it. And I remember having conscious thoughts while this was happening, like thinking, “Oh my gosh, I’m so loud. Oh my goodness. Everybody’s looking at me, like this is embarrassing. What’s going on?”

And it’s just like, you know, I I had no control though. So this is happening. And then I’m I’m on the ground, eventually just convulsing, and all of a sudden, I feel stuff come out of me. Like, I literally feel things leave me. And then everything stopped. Like I just I laid there motionless, motionless on the ground. And I remember in that moment, I was like, “Oh my gosh, I can hear myself think for the first time in years.” And I had peace. And I had joy. Like, I was laying there with a huge smile on my face, like, wondering, like, “How did this get here? Like what happened?”

And I was like, “I gotta, I gotta get up and tell my mom like, I gotta go tell my mom.” And they’re like, “No, you won’t be able to move.” And I couldn’t, I couldn’t feel my legs. Like I could not move. And I physically, I felt like a train hit me, like it felt physically draining. And it was like every bone in my body hurt, but mentally, spiritually, emotionally. I felt like a million bucks. Like, I was like, I don’t care how bad my body hurts. I am–I am free. So I, I eventually got up and went back to my mom and I took her out into the lobby. And I told her what happened and she just cried. She cried. And she instantly could see that there was a different person standing in front of her. And then I called my brother who I hadn’t talked to in months, because I was so mad at him. And I called him and I just cried. And I told him and he was like, “Oh my gosh, I saw that stuff happen on mission trips, but I never thought of it happened to my sister.” And then later that night, we went home after the conference and my my dad and my sister were at home and I went in and I just, I mean just full of life. And I just told him what happened and like…like my dad did not believe in that stuff whatsoever. I mean, I don’t think any of my family did, like I know I didn’t. And it’s it’s been a total 180 since that night, just a total 180. I cold turkeyed off of 10 psych meds that night because I thought, “Well, Jesus just freed me. I don’t need these anymore.” And I should have died medically from going off of all those. But I was like, no way. He’s gonna keep me alive. And I went through terrible withdrawal for only a week, which is a miracle. But that’s what really, I think sold my family on it because I’m going through withdrawal. And I’m throwing up, I’m like, you know, throwing up, going to the bathroom all the time, couldn’t keep anything down. And I’ve got the joy of the Lord all over me. And I am so excited about life, but so physically like not okay. And they’re like, “Oh my gosh, this is real, like she is really happy, but really sick but really happy.”

And it has just, it has just been me so in love with Jesus ever since. And I’ve just been on this journey with just seeking Him and getting to know Him. And I just like I will never be able to fully comprehend what happened that night. But what I can tell you is that I have never felt so much love and so much grace like I did in that moment. I was the most undeserving person, and He just came down and just wiped out years of torment within seconds. And it amazes me that all Todd said was two words. But Jesus is so powerful. That that’s all it took. It didn’t take some like crazy prayer. It just was like, “Get out.” And that’s it. It was done. And I don’t even really remember like Todd, I don’t really remember him. I just I know that like it was Jesus who was holding my hands. And it was Jesus who was looking me in my eyes. And He just came down and He touched me. And it has just been a game changer. Like once that happens, you can’t go back. I’m every day I’m at this place of like, man, I’d be dead if it wasn’t for you. So every day I wake up and lay my life down so that I can serve you the best way possible. Because I wouldn’t I wouldn’t be here and I believe I’d be in Hell. Yeah, I’m in love with Jesus Christ. That’s where I’m at. And my whole family’s been affected greatly. My dad who wouldn’t set foot in a charismatic church because he thought they were quote unquote Fruit Loops now is there every weekend so yeah, God is, does not belong in a box, is beyond what you can think. And just to further what God has done. I was on three medications for endometriosis. I had had multiple surgeries. And I had not had a period in five years because they had me on meds to stop my reproductive system from working so that the endometriosis would slow down. I am off all that medication. I have not had any symptoms at all from endometriosis. I am completely healed of endometriosis. I had thyroid issues, I had hypothyroidism, they found two masses on my thyroid, was talking about it being cancer, told me I was gonna have to probably have it removed. And I said, “What does that mean?” Oh, it means you’ll be on meds for the rest of your life. I said, “Oh, no, God did not take me off meds to put me back on them.” And now my thyroid is completely healed, I am off, I am off all medication. I am on no meds. Like it is everything has been completely restored. Like he always goes above and beyond what we even imagine. And I believe the only thing, the the only thing that led me to getting set free that night was because I was at the end of my rope. And all the hope I had in anything else was completely gone. And I was able to finally surrender and say, “You know what? You need to show up. Because if you don’t, I’m I’m done. Like I can’t do this.” But it wasn’t until I was able to surrender that He was able to come in and do what He had to do.

The greatest thing that God has put on my heart for my testimony is that whenever people hear that you’ve been possessed, I think they are under the assumption that you are involved with witchcraft, like that you like mess around with Ouiji boards or tarot cards or anything. I didn’t do anything like that. And I want people to know that like, No, I did drugs. I drank. I listened to bad music. I watched bad movies, TV shows, I watched pornography. I was I was involved with sexual immorality. It’s like, no, no, no….you don’t have to do that stuff to have the devil come in, and screw with you and mess your whole life up. You don’t. And like every time I was doing something, I was opening up a door saying, “Come on in.” I was in the devil’s playground. And that’s what people don’t understand. They think they’re safe if they’re not doing certain things, but it’s like, no, you’re opening up a door. So my life now is being intentional with everything I do. Because if I can prevent giving the devil a foothold, I will do everything in my power not to. Like it’s just it’s not worth it.

Oh, and I want to say something a lot of people don’t know. So my hair is cut because Jesus told me to cut it. And I know that sounds really wack. But just hear me out. So I cut my hair. And I didn’t know why for really like for a long time. I was like, why did I do this? I clearly look better with long hair. And a lot of people think I am lesbian or bisexual because of my haircut, which is funny. It’s just the world we live in. And what started happening was God started speaking to me, and he was like, I want you to take the time you used to spend on your hair in the mornings, and I want you to spend it on me. So I was like, Oh, wow. So I started doing that. And then he was just speaking into my identity. And he was like, “Alexis, the length of your hair does not define your worth.” Because I was very much–I covered things up for years. So I used like my hair and makeup and like stuff to make myself look like I was doing great. Oh yeah, just cover up the outside. But internally, I’m dying, like, so it was just him. It was Him taking me out of that place. And like He even had me fast makeup for a very long time. And I rarely wear it now. And it’s it’s, I’m not saying every woman needs to cut their hair, like not wear makeup. But what it did for me is it really taught me who I was and that I don’t need these things to make me confident. I don’t need these things to make me who I am. I am simply just a daughter of God. And like all that stuff is pointless. Just to me now, it just really is. It’s it’s just, it’s not even worth it anymore. And it’s so it’s so freeing to be able to have your hair cut short, to not wear makeup. And to still feel so confident in who you are. Like you just feel so confident. And honestly, I just think about–I would challenge so many women like, like, cut your hair off and stuff and see how you feel it is it’s hard. Like for me personally, and I think many people I’ve met, I think I think it’s a it’s an identity crisis. And that’s what I was having for 23 years of my life. And I think our society as a whole is having an identity crisis. And what it is is like, you don’t know who you are, you don’t know whose you are. So you’re acting out of that. And it’s like, everything that I did, I was trying to find identity. Like the only reason I started drinking is because I was with friends when I drank for the first time. And they they were like, oh, you’re a tank. You’re a tank like you don’t even need a chaser. You’re like you’re just going fo it. And I was like I’m a tank. That’s what I am. I’m good at this. And I kept drinking. And I remember the first time I went to a psych ward, and they told me, “Oh, you have bipolar one.” It was something I held on to it. Oh, that’s me. And I stuck the label on myself. And it was like every little label that they put on me, made me who I was, it was my identity. When I got when I got delivered. I remember looking in the mirror for the first time and liking what I saw. And it’s because God said, “All of these labels that you’ve taken on are from the world. The only label you have from me is that you’re a daughter of the Most High King. You are my daughter. That’s it. That’s the only label you will from now on ever take on.” And I was able to look in the mirror and like, I saw Jesus, like I saw someone who was worthy, who was loved, who was in intelligent, who was beautiful. It was like, it was a whole new world–that’s what it was. Okay. It was crazy.


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Divine Setups

Refusing to see the difficulties in life as anything other than the divine setups of God, Kathleen shares a few of her own challenges and how God brought her through.

Do Not Fear

Listen to Alicia's remarkable journey through fear, uncertainty, and a miraculous healing after multiple tests had pointed to cancer.

Don’t Give Up. Rise Up.

On a mission trip in Nigeria, Ayelen contracts Ebola. Upon returning to Argentina, she is hopitalized and left for dead. As she cries out to the Lord for help she hears the Lord [...]

Exposing Fear

During his bout with Covid and extreme fatigue, God exposed fear in David's life as the root for putting his beautiful children above the Lord.

Facing Mental Affliction

Years of mental affliction was destroying Anthony and his family. He encounters Jesus through love and inner healing and is instantly healed.

Faith Moves

By faith Darius and his wife leave their jobs and move to Dallas right before Covid and they get to see God work in miraculous ways through their obedience.

Faithful Obedience

Emmy's faithful obedience to God led to proclaiming His love on the streets in London to prisons all over the world.

Father to the Fatherless

Growing up without a father left a void in Zach's life. He looked for life and acceptance in everything but God. Now he's partnering with God to make a difference in the lives of [...]

Finding Abundant Life

Looking for life and happiness in all the things of this world, Joe finds abundant life in the last place he ever expected.

Finding God in Disappointments

Despite divorce, cancer, and other trials, Denny found God's greatest blessings in the midst of life's disappointments.

Foolishness of God

As a performer and writer, Fiona has seen God use foolishness to confound the wise and draw many to Himself in the most unlikely of scenarios.

Freed from Anxiety

Afraid to go anywhere by herself, Tiffany was gripped by fear, worry, and anxiety. For years she prayed for freedom and found healing when she least expected it.

Freedom Behind Bars 1/2

Sentenced to life in prison for a crime he didn't commit, Gene finds Jesus and true freedom behind bars as his pleas for mercy are denied by the courts. "Unshackle him, release him [...]

Freedom Behind Bars 2/2

After 34 years of serving the Lord behind bars, Gene is released. Looking back he shares some of the supernatural God moments in his life of freedom.

From New Age to New Creation

Seeking peace, Michelle begins a spiritual journey through the New Age movement. An answered prayer leads her to Jesus and life as a new creation.

From Tool to Treasure

Steve grew up believing he was just an unloved tool in God's hands until a miracle happened and God showed Steve that he is actually a beloved treasure!

Give Jesus a Try

Holiday YouTube scrolling is used by the Holy Spirit to entice Machelle to give Jesus a try instead of numbing out and her identity is transformed.

God Chose Me

From depressed and suicidal to healed and joyful, Damian has seen the work of God in his life. Damian has been chosen by God for something greater.

God Had Us

After a motorbike crash leaves him fighting for his life, Beren's faith deepens as he realizes God had him throughout the ordeal.

God Has Something for You

A God encounter as a boy in Uganda, leads to Joseph's unshakable faith. Despite tremendous challenges, he knows that God has something for him.

God Has the Final Say…Not Cancer

Doctors sent him home to die. Sure that God had the final say and not cancer Jeff maintained, prayed without ceasing and the cancer ravaging his body was healed.

God Hears

After years of infertility and heart break, Holly questions if God even hears her cries. His answer changed her life forever.

God is After You

Joseph needed more than religious do's and don'ts to comfort his broken heart. A new friend told him "God is after you!", which led to him hearing from God and his healing.

God Knows Where We Are

Ken has seen and experienced a lot in his 60+ years of ministry. One thing he knows for sure, God knows where we are and He wants to meet every need.

God Speaks a Better Word

Two of her three boys are diagnosed with Fragile X Syndrome but God speaks a better word to Jeffie through the Holy Spirit prophetic words, and the Bible.

God’s Favor

Through incredibly difficult circumstances, Sharon has learned that God's favor doesn't mean happiness and the life of her dreams. It's actually better than that.

God’s In a Good Mood About Me

Delivered from the fear of man, Bri learned her identity in Christ and now lives in freedom to bring that revelation of His goodness to others.

God’s Timing

When Steve received word after word from several people about his future ministry, he had no idea how different God's timing would be from his own.

Going All In

Unable to go under water due to his tracheotomy, Landon gets completely healed and is going all in for the first time at his baptism.


Born with severe sleep apnea, 21 month old Landon receives a tracheotomy and doctors say he will never talk. His parents pray for complete healing and receive a miracle with one [...]

Healing in Unbelief 1/2

An obedient messenger of the Lord, Lee finds himself facing the greater challenge of unbelief than the hope and possibility of healing when he meets Camille.

Healing the Broken Places

While playing a game with her youth group, Isabella falls and breaks her jaw. When she asks God for healing, He mends more than the broken places.

Healing the Heartbroken

After years of knowing Jesus through His word, Sharla has an encounter with Him that heals the brokenhearted little one trapped within her.

Hearing God’s Voice

A string of bad choices leave Baylee broken and homeless. Desperate for help, her hope is restored by the prayer of a stranger and hearing the voice of God.

Heart for the Homeless

Circumstances in her own life gives Karen a deep understanding and heart for the homeless that leads serving in South Dallas faithfully for over 23 years.

Hope’s Family

Little moments can transform a life. That's just what happened to Lindsey as she spent time with Hope's family. They gave her a hunger for God's Kingdom that she now shares with [...]

I Give You My Life

Fourteen years old Chethan plans his suicide. He cries out to God, "I give you my life" and is overwhelmed by the presence and power of the Lord.

Immersed In Holy Spirit

Chris becomes a success, a wealthy entrepreneur, until it all goes away. A God encounter restores his fortunes and launches a ministry.

In My Father’s Chair

Suffering the loss of his father, Joshua almost lost his ministry and his faith until God stepped in and showed Joshua the plans and purpose for his life.

In Need of a Father

After years of neglect and abuse, Mary Beth's father walked out and she found herself in need a of Father that would never leave her nor forsake her.

In Need of the Gospel

Through missional outreach, Jesse finds that he is in need of the gospel as much as those who haven't yet received it.

Inmates Pray. Cancer Healed.

Usually the one praying for the inmates he faithfully serves, Wayne is diagnosed with cancer and the inmates pray for him to be healed.

Inside Out

As old addictions fall away and new fire is lit, Michael Seth realizes that God's love is supernaturally changing him from the inside out.

Jesus Came in Like a Boss

After years of addiction and lies, Jamie says that "Jesus came in like a Boss" and delivered her from all of it. Her life has been redeemed and restored.

Jesus is The Truth

Searching for the truth most of his life, Brian's life is transformed by Jesus after Brian placed His word over his own circumstances.

Just One

Despite the challenges of running a group home for troubled teens, Tiffany and her family discover it's all worth it if they can save just one from the system and introduce her to [...]

Keeping a Promise

Diagnosed with breast cancer at a young age in Mexico and ostracized from her family for her faith, Tethe keeps her promise to the Lord.

Knit Together

Ultrasounds revealed and confirmed, in utero, that Ashley's son August had polycystic kidney disease in both kidneys. After months of prayer, God knit together a miracle for family [...]

Learning to Love

Jane has found that learning to love as God loves looks radically different from what we've been taught.

Leaving Everything for Jesus

Searching for fulfillment and satisfaction in what the world offered left Lance broken and longing for something real. When he encountered the reality of the righteousness [...]

Leaving the Pew

Unsatisfied with traditional church, John and Eva long to be used by God and leave the pew to be the church to those in need.

Letting Go

Striving for years, Darin never dreamt that letting go of his ministry plans would be God's plan for desire fulfilled and a life of joy.

Life is a Gift

A tragic accident changes all of Matthew's plans for the future. God shows him that life is a precious gift, both here and in eternity.

Lost and Found

Growing up, Adira struggled to fit in amongst her peers and found acceptance in the LGBTQ community. Then God moved and what was lost became found as her identity was restored.

Love for the Unlovable

Convinced that he was unlovable, Jason grew up believing the worst about himself and then he encountered the love of Jesus.

Love Your Neighbor

Born at 28 weeks and later diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy, Maddie wasn't expected to live. Rejected by her mother, it was the love of her neighbors that changed her life.

Made Perfect

Left with two options, believe the doctors or believe the Lord, Krissia chooses the word of God, that He made her daughter perfect. Her faith in that promise changed everything.

Made to Worship

Learning to pray to the Lord through singing, Aiva became connected to God. It is in worship that she found His comfort and peace in the midst of tragedy.

Making All Things New

As the Lord was healing Ali's leg supernaturally, He was also healing her heart and making all things new in this modern day parable of restoration.

Marked By God

Kristi's story chronicles a journey of brokenness transformed into beauty as God's redeeming love restores her shattered past. From the depths of despair following abortions and a [...]

Miraculous Connection

Brad started a Facebook group during the pandemic, but God started a series of miraculous connections that are spreading the gospel in India.

More to Come

Johnathan shares how God revealed His presence through a near-death experience, a friend's spiritual transformation, and impactful conversations, showcasing the transformative [...]

Moved with Compassion

A young boy is shot in the head and on life support. Moved with compassion Justin pushes past his fears and enters the NICU to lay hands and pray for him.

My True Identity

After years of confusion, abuse, and same sex attraction, Leslie was introduced to Jesus and found her true worth and identity.

Never Alone

Picked on for being different; confused and lonely, but never alone. Justin has always felt God's presence, The One who never gave up on him.

Not Ashamed

Her heart is for women caught in sex industry and life on the streets, but Nadia shares how Holy Spirit directed her to share the Father's heart for a pimp.

Not by Might

Bella describes her journey of finding life through community and walking by the Spirit. She gives a few examples of trusting in His might and the supernatural outcomes.

Offensive Forgiveness

Beaten and sexually abused as a child, Kathy leans on God to find freedom through love and a forgiveness that is culturally offensive.

One Sows Another Reaps

Matt shares his transformative journey from the brink of death, where he battled physical, emotional, and financial crises, to a miraculous turnaround. Through divine intervention [...]

Open to The Call

Through her own testimony of God's goodness, Dawn sees value in everyone and is open to the call of God to make sure they see it too.

Out of the Pit

Desperate, hopeless, and longing for answers John turns to mushrooms to find a way out of the pit and meets Jesus instead.

Partnering with God in Business

Taylor describes how God led him to start a Kingdom Business and gives examples of how Holy Spirit has empowered them to focus on Godly principles.

Persisting In Faith

As Lauren fights an incurable disease, she wrestles with the truths and promises of God despite her physical results. After trying every medical treatment possible and every inner [...]

Power Evangelism

Tom trains tens of thousands to evangelize with the power of God and sees lives radically transformed again and again, believing that there is always more.

Power of Hope

Living in abundant hope, faith and power, Caroline refuses to let her diagnosis of infertility define her faith, her purpose, or the goodness of God.

Prayer is the Answer

As Tracey struggles to find peace amid life's many challenges, she finds prayer is the answer and the only way forward.

Precious Pain

Paralyzed by the pain of arthritis, forced to rest and unable to care for her family Sayo hears clearly from the Lord. Her illness becomes precious.

Provision for the Journey

They sold everything and set out on a journey, not sure where the Lord would lead them. They've learned to trust Him every step of the way.

Purposefully Homeless

Led by God on a purposefully homeless journey, Rachel leaves her job, home, and modern day comforts to find the one thing money can't buy.

Radical Faith

Wanting more of God, Dave moves his family from Australia to California where radical faith is stirred up through obedience that moves mountains.

Reclaiming the Past

Unable to trust God after the loss of his sister, EJ looks for answers and is able to reclaim the past when he has multiple encounters with Jesus.

Reconciling Race

A purposeful engagement and wedding become the catalyst to reconciling race through the union of marriage and the grace of God.

Redeeming Grace

Kristi's story chronicles a journey of brokenness transformed into beauty as God's redeeming love restores her shattered past. From the depths of despair following abortions and a [...]

Religion Makes You Crazy

Erin's world was falling apart. Her religious life left her feeling defeated and crazy, until she was taught her true identity and authority in Christ.

Resource Room of Heaven

Financial plans crumble, car totalled, Clint feels he is being punished by God. He has an encounter with Jesus and learns about the resource room of heaven.

Revival of the Heart

As Hillary longs for revival in the church, God breathes revival into the lungs of a little boy and Hillary's heart.

Running With The Gospel

After multiple confirmations of his calling, God anoints Peter's feet to run with the gospel. When a father affirms a son, there's nothing more powerful.

Seed of Faith

God gave JK a dream that has transformed his life and his entire family. What started as a seed of faith has overflowed to abundant blessings for many.

Setting Captives Free

Once a slave to addiction and pornography, Anthony is now setting captives free through his non-profit and restoring their God-given identity and value.

Sharing God’s Love

Lonnie's desire to share God's love with his community transforms an entire town. From trimming hedges to baking cookies, God uses it all.

Showered with Love

As a young teen in college, Elaina find herself pregnant and afraid. But God stands in the gaps and showers her with love in the most unexpected ways.

Silencing the Inner Critic

Growing up Christian, David saw himself as a disappointment. God's audible voice silenced the inner critic that had tormented David most of his life.

Simple Prayer of Faith

Wade shares how a simple prayer of faith and following Jesus' example of laying hands on the sick has lead to supernatural healings and salvations. The ultimate goal is to follow Jesus.

Simply Say Yes

What can God do with a simple yes? Mike finds out again and again after he gives his life to Jesus and starts tithing.

Sowing Seeds

As racial issues divide a nation, Eniola shares her desire to go beyond unity to sow seeds of oneness for the next generation.

Spiritual Roots

After years of unexplained medical issues, Renee hears that her symptoms have spiritual roots. At the end of her rope, she considers the supernatural. Renee's faith is challenged [...]

Stop Rejecting Me

He spent his entire life rejecting God until kidney failure went from dialysis to a nearly fatal organ transplant, causing Chris to stop running from the only One who could save him.

Student of Forgiveness

Kathryn learns true forgiveness from her Heavenly Father, but had to become a student to truly forgive and find complete freedom for herself.


Leaving his ways and plans behind, Bob chose to surrender everything to the Lord. In doing so, he found true freedom.

Survive or Thrive

Challenged to get from one city to another relying only on God and the kindness of strangers, Thomas learns that he can either survive or thrive. The choice is his.

Tablets of Testimony

Adam and Brooke sit down to discuss what Adam has learned about the tablets of testimony and how their depth reveals something much greater than a law.

The Blessing

What's happened since the break-in? Today we share how God has shown up in a mighty way through blessing after blessing.

The End of Me

Years of addiction and lies bring Ron to the end of himself and to the feet of God. He encounters God in the back of a police car and feels free for the first time.

The Father’s House

When things don't add up, God's miraculous provision provides further confirmation for missionaries to create a discipleship house for lost sons –The Father's House.

The Forgiveness of an Adulterer

A broken past leads to lies and adultery as the foundation of their marriage. Through God's incredible grace and forgiveness, hope is found and a marriage is restored.

The Forgiveness of an Adulterer

A broken past leads to lies and adultery as the foundation of their marriage. Through God's incredible grace and forgiveness, hope is found and a marriage is restored.

The Gift of Compassion

During a mission trip to Congo, Lisa was moved with deep compassion for sexual abuse survivors. She now sees that compassion as a beautiful gift from the Lord.

The Gift of Trust

Faced with infertility, Rod and his wife choose to trust God and His plans for them through the gift of adopting a child with Cerebral Palsy. God has supernaturally revealed [...]

The Heart of the Father

Traumatic events in Sherri's life left her battling fear most of her life. It wasn't until she uncovered the heart of her Father that she was set free.

The Height of Grace in the depths…

Abortion leaves many in the depths of despair, it is only through the heigths of the Father's love and grace that Brooke is able to forgive herself.

The Life God Intended

He had everything the world could offer, but it wasn't the life God intended for Michael. God had a better plan, one that Michael had to hit rock bottom to find.

The Mystery of God

Brad shares about his miraculous healing as a kid which led to a wrestling with faith and science. He's learning to accept the mystery of God.

The Mystery of Prayer

Seeking to understand why some of his prayers are answered and others aren't, Keith finds their is a greater mystery to prayer.

The Power of Identity

Trapped in an addiction to pornography, Josh learns the truth of his identity and the power that has to set him free.

The Power of Story

As a sports writer and pastor, Tyler knows the power of story and shares the profound impact stories have to encourage others, lift spirits, and honor God.

The Power of Testimony

As Brooke and Adam wrestle with their son's diagnosis, they find comfort in a testimony they wrote 4 years earlier that speaks to the power and love of God in their lives.

The Process of Becoming Free

As Cody sings and worships the Lord, he has a revelation that leads to breakthrough in his anxiety. He walks us through those emotions and steps, as he surrenders control to God.

The Risk of Faith

Looking for opportunities to celebrate God, Daniel goes out expecting God to show up in a moment and his faith is increased with every risk he takes.

The Unexpected Church

Through a series of unexpected events, Sam becomes the pastor of a multi-national church and finds immense joy in his calling.

The Wrestle with Hell

Paul's story is a powerful testimony of faith, and love, amid challenges faced by his wife's battle with traumatic visions in hell.

Theology of Suffering

Jim shares about his journey through his wife's life altering diagnosis, near death experience, and the miraculous birth of his son.

There is Always Hope

Throughout her life, Britni has been told by several doctors that there is no hope. But she knows that with God, there's always hope.

There’s Power in the Presence

When the world and all it offers no longer works for Kim, she finds the power and presence of God through worship music and the prophetic.

Today Is The Day

When multiple tragedies strike in Sarah's life she finds herself desperately seeking the Lord. From inner healing to physical healing - today is the day Sarah really meets Jesus.

Trust Me

After receiving a dream from the Lord, Suzanne chooses to trust the Lord with her healing from breast cancer.

TUS Update

Brooke and Adam return home from vacation to find their home has been robbed. They process their loss and the future of the podcast with you, their listeners.

Two Words from a Stranger…

Jeremy prays for an opportunity to share God's love. He receives a word of knowledge for a stranger. Those two specific words change both men forever.

Unbelievable Expectations

From prison to praise, God redeems Mike's life in unbelievable ways causing him to have expectations for hope and favor despite his past.

Unlimited Possibilities

When God awakens Tom's heart and mind to His unlimited possibilities, Tom learns his true identity in Christ.

Unraveling Addiction, Restoring a Marriage

Aaron's life was unraveling because of his addiction and his wife uncovers the truth. Restoring their marriage becomes possible through Jesus, love, and recovery ministry.

Upside Down Kingdom

When Dave decides to attend seminary in Oxford his life is turned upside down for the Kingdom of God and hasn't been the same since.

Vehicle for the Gospel

Rapping and preaching the gospel all over the country turns out to be quite difficult when you don't have a vehicle. Moses prays and fasts for a month asking God for help. The Lord [...]

Voice of God

The appearance of perfection was important for Craig as a Pastor's son, but when he hears the voice of God everything changes. I heard the voice of God in a way that I didn't know [...]

Walk of Faith

Benedikt's walk with God takes him places he never expected as his faith grows with each step.

We Will See

Kristi's story chronicles a journey of brokenness transformed into beauty as God's redeeming love restores her shattered past. From the depths of despair following abortions and a [...]

When All Else Fails

When everything else has failed him, Neb finds himself at rock bottom crying out to God and wrestling for truth.

When All Seems Lost

On suicide watch all seems lost when JD loses nearly three quarters of a million dollars in three days. But faithful obedience pays off. I thought God was going to bless me. And [...]

When Heaven and Earth Collide

An instrument maker by trade, Caleb receives a digital download of an instrument he has never seen and a tribe name in a dream. This dream ignites a journey where heaven and earth [...]

Whoa, God is Here!

John begins each day with expectancy of what the Holy Spirit will do. Lead by the Spirit, he gets to share in some incredible supernatural experiences with God and His children.

You Belong Here

On her own at 16, Monique was searching for family, identity, a place to belong, and ended up in jail. That's where she cried out to God for the first time and discovered true life.

Your Life Is Not Your Own

Rosie has attempted suicide twice since losing her son and is planning a third attempt the very day that she meets Tyler and Andy who share that her life is not her own and God has [...]

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